word of advice

dont let life get you down, there will only be worse and better events ahead of you, so at the end of your road then complain. =)

the one

the one

to see people that you care for

to be really hurt and scared

even lost in thier emotions

makes me want them more than they know

when they try to push you away

you feel really hurt

you know they want you

it makes you feel helpless

maybe they have good intentions

to try not to hurt you

tell you that there's someone out there better

in my opinion there isn't

thats the worst they can do

once you get a taste of paradise

you never want to leave it

but when its taken from you

your pain is too great for words

you know you miss her

when everything you see reminds you of her

you know its foolish to act this way

but you cant really help it

so many feelings and emotions

sometimes you cant find the right words

you say you'd do anything for to get her back

but in reality the real decision lays with her

all you can do is wait and hope for the best

every thing tells you to move on

but something is keeping me back

maybe once you've had something so great

there's always something that tells you thats what you want

and right now thats all i want

to make her feel safe and know that she means alot to me

i hurt for her and feel her pain

i hope she knows

I'll never see her less than a friend

its a sad position to feel

that she might not want you again

just let that girl know that her man is waiting

its a sad feeling

but i hope i'll get over it soon. how can someone have so many friends but yet feel so alone? its something im tryin to figure out right now, one day you feel like your on top of the world and then before you know it, its all lost and you dont know how to deal with it. you thought things would be diff this time but you realize its just like the rest. everything is telling you not to feel this way but you still do it anyway. it's not healthy to have pitty, it only breeds feebleness, but in its place its better to have comfort. the worst you can do is push the ones who do care about you away and distance yourself from them. they only have good intentions and accept any trials that lay ahead but when seperated its a hard way to travel. if that person really care about you, then they'll have no problem taking you back no matter what.
all you can do is hope for the best and be patient and diligent. and also try not to screw things up. cuz thats the biggest thing i'll regret if i make it not possible again


its just some thoughts i think of every once in a while, ok all the time.

a place for them all

every girl i fell for 
forever has a place in my heart
i may not ever go to that place again 
but they're there forever
some i like to visit often 
but most are painfull 
but necessary to feel
because without them
i wouldn't be the man i am today
most i dont see for a very long time
because another girl opens a new place in my heart
dont feel that its the end
becuase the end of what might be a good thing
will lead you to an even better one
but its good to keep these thoughts with you 
they make you who you are

The path

you ask yourself sometimes
why you try so hard
you think that it'll make you happy
but in the end it does the opposite
yet i try day after day
with no reason in mind
some call it stupidity
maybe they're partly true
but i like to think of it has life
in pure lesson form
if only the pain would be easier
then maybe i could learn better
if only things could be made better
by using words of love and kindness
i'd use them everyday and every chance i could
life has many things in store for us
alot of them we wont like and real painfull
but whenn something amazing happens
all the bad things seem to not matter anymore
like all that matters is what makes you happy
and you have to chase those things no matter what
because in reality thats all that really matters

a goal in life

my goal is to be remembered
thats what were all trying to do 
i want to have an everlasting impact 
on each and every person i meet
to be something great
that will make a special person feel lucky to have me
to be wanted is a step short of being loved
and that is what life is all about
without love and friendship 
life amounts to nothing without the ones you care about
but sometimes the ones you want let you down
but what you want isn't always what you need
whats good about the ones you want
who let you down
is that they show you who really matters most in your life
the ones who love you will never let you down
thats my goal in life
to find someone who will love me back
and to be remembered as someone who's great

one step closer

just know that every break-up and pain you go though only leads you one step closer to your soul mate, and to me its worth it goin through all that mess to be with the one you truly love     

your feelings

I hate it when you have feelings for someone
and they dont have them back
even if you barely know them
it still a bad situation
but then you might not be sure to give up
you know in your head its pointless
but in your heart its worth it
how much are you willing to make yourself vunerable
for someone just to come along and hurt you
some may call it a crush
but i call it feelings you cant control
they make you mad, happy, and real happy
but alot of the times it makes you mad
I wonder how to make myself better
just to get the attention back
it makes you second guess yourself
Sometimes thats good
but most of the time it breaks down your confidence
I hope one day I'll have that
Most say that I do have it 
But I think otherwise
Its amazing on how I can want it  so badly
but so far its always let me down
I really hope its real
and not some illusion
I want it badly but it doesn't want me
all i can do is hope for the best
and make it better 
Because for now, there's always someone bette

what Life brings you

life happens 
life will give you alot of bad things
so when it gives you the good things
you need to hold onto them like no other
you think you've found what you want 
but realize your not ready
even if it means that you have to sacrifice your want
to protect the one you care for
you cry for him, in a sense of passion
and he feels the same way
the pain is genuine
it is very real, but not wanted at all
maybe in the end it'll work out
but it never has worked out  for him
as mush as he wants it too
something tells him to move on
the third time he's told the same thing
it hurts deep but he truly knows
its for the best, for both of them
what the future holds, no one knows
the amzing part of the sacrifice made 
is that its a sign of affection
they want eachother so badly 
but they hold themselves back
what feels so good is not always the right thing
life works itself out everytime
most of the time its not waht we want 
but we have to take it
its not safe to say its love
because he belives its power is so strong
that it shouldn't be taken lighty
so its not shown 
but the undeniable attraction
can be just as stong 
and in this story, it is lost
maybe not forever
but surely right now it is
he wants to treat her special
but that pain will always be known
he will still try to kiss her
because the taste of her lips 
will make everything better
maybe just for a little bit
but that little bit is worth every second
so he'll try, and hopefully she'll accept
and that is were they are left off
confused and not knowing
and the want is still there 
so it'll work out
but might not be together again
but friends, definatly

regret

life has a way of workin out in the end
it may not be what you want
but you have to trust that it's whats best
its not always a happy ending
but it always means something
there isn't always a second chance
so when its there you better take it 
because regret is a ugly thing
it will eat away at you untill theres nothing left to save
so save yourself now before its too late
if you wanna talk to someone then do it
dont let time makes things worse
but always know theres someone thinking of you
feelings from the past are expected to fade
but in reality the pain is just the same today
not a day goes by wtihout thinking of the day
its strange what we remember and what we forget
we like to remeber the pain and not the joy
its good to know pain, but its better to feel joy
so hope for the best and prepare for the worst
because its a real bumpy road ahead

Think

Does she still want me?
Emotions flood my mind
I try to think for the best 
but fail in every attempt
to wonder how she must feel of me
makes me feel like a monster
all that would make me happy
is her smiling at me
knowing that Im all she want
I know she's not happy right now
because im not either
there isn't an hour that passes
that I don't think about her
I hope she's better 
but I hope she'd be better with me
fear is an evil thing
it holds us back and keeps us captive
I fear very few things
but what I fear most
is that I might never again be close to her 
the girl that I want 
the girl that I need
I hope she misses me like I do her
to have her feel my pain
that would mean she truly cared for me
I fear her not hoping that we'll be close again
I hold nothing against her
because only she knows what's best for her
and I trust her, and wait

as painful as it maybe
this thought it humbles me

a friend or more

i dont know if it is right
what i think day and night
if we'll be close once again 
or if she just sees me as a friend
every day shes in my thought 
i fear that me she has forgot
when i listen to her music
makes me break down and i start to lose it
its not right how i act
but i have to take it as a fact

Pain

pain comes in many shapes and forms
it can last a long time or it can happen in a split second
the people who matters most can reconize it 
it changes people for the worst and for the best
the person is in control of that
pain is neccesary for our emotions to mature
and helps us in our daily struggles
it toughens us up and prepares us for bigger struggles
pain makes us human
everyone has it, whether they ignore it or not is their choice
pain comes in many shapes and forms
death is the pain everyone has to go through
losing your best friend, family, or even a complete stranger
it affects us in the worst way
we dont know how to deal with these emotions 
so we wait for them to pass over
we need to know that they are in a better place
pain free, worry free stress free
they cry for our suffering
we go through the pains every day that they dont
the worst pain is emotional pain
physical pain can be fixed but emotional pain takes more work than anything
even though the world is against you
you have to find a reason to fight 
to know you have a purpose, because everyone does
if you dont think you have a purose
then that only means your searching for it
nothing great comes easy
everything worth while is worth your effort
pain comes in many shapes and forms
you might have a crush one someone but it ends in a way you dont want
but all you can do is pick up the pieces and move on
theres someone there for you 
even if you cant see them 
but you only better as a person with the trials you overcome
so take hold of what you care for and chase for what you want

Yo

im tough you cant change it
if u see me weak its because i show it 
i show it because i care that much for you
so much that i make myself vulnerable to you
to trust you with my secrets, my feelings
so dont see my emotions as my weakness
its a sign of compassion, that i care
my weakness would be that i care too much
im strong, nothing you can do
i know whats right and what i need to do
i move forward but dont forget the past
the hardships in your life is what molds you
what makes you urself
your true essense and being
you cant control what happens to you 
but you can control how you react to it.
if your not moving forwards then your goin backwards
keep up with your standards, and always work for higher ones. 
better yourself and others will too
be strong and be tough because your in control of your unknown

Le Mysterie

hy is it u only want what you cant have? greed is torture my friends, it will eat you up.

but what if its not greed you may ask. what if its something humble and simple you want. maybe its something that both the poorest man and the billionaire have. it might be that its not cut out for everyone, but everyone wants it. maybe its something when asked to descirbe you can only think to explain it but not able to.

obviously  it doesnt cost anything, if it does its not real. if it doesnt  feel right its not real. you cant turn it on and off, its just there. its the best feeling you can have in the world. there just isnt anything that tops it. but when lost its the worst feeling possible. you wont eat, you wont sleep. thats when you know u had something real.

everyone ventures into it blind and with no guide. its the path no one knows. its full of pain and torture and everything bad in between. and why would anyone want to venture into this void? because its our nature to do something weve never done. experience new feelings and discover emotions. one day i will have this. its hard in bewteen but its worth it when ur there.

if you havent guessed it yet, ask me what it is and i'll say back,

it takes a lifetime to discover what it really

listen to what i say

isten to what i say,

 

and i'll tell you what you need to hear.


do what i say, and you'll be successfull.


i am never forgotten

i am never remembered

i will make you better and then i'll lrve you wanting more.


i am what you desire most , your fantasy come true.


follow my example and you'll be miserable.


my example is of my own. i follow no one.


trust no one, you only have yourself in the end

if you depend on others then you need to reconsider yourself as a person

two kinds of people, the ones who make it or the ones who dont.


im makin it.
are you?

money makes me happy, other things do too.


i can make money but i cant make the other things.


your life is in your hands, what will you do with it?

will you waste away in love? depend your life in anothers hands?

will you shut the world off and forget anyone exists?

will you hide behind a wall of success?

if you dont know what makes you happy then that means your adventure in life has not ended yet.


if you found what makes you happy, then you have solved the mystery of life, dont let go of it.


what will you next chapter be?

will you share it with the world or hide it under your mattress?

do as i do and you'll be miserable, the more you see the more it will drive you away.


i will always be successfull, but im workin on the happiness part.

TRUST

hy do i want it
what good does it do for me
it doesnt make me happy
its only broken and hurts me
i hate it
whenever i give its lost
why
why is it that trust hurts
its supposed to make you feel safe
it just pisses me off
trust is more powerfull than anything else
so you wont get it from me
depend on no one to make you happy
you get what you want
because you make it happen
no one else will
your man
your woman
will break your trust
your best friend
your best man
they'll let you down
be a rock
be a island
you dont need anyone
if you think you need someone
to make you happy
then your dumb
arrogant and incompitent
you are in control of your life
you are in control of your happiness
so do what makes you happy
because no one else will make you happy
i've learned that the hard way
dont be down
thats dumb too
and dont cry over him/her
thats stupid
get another one
and most importantly

TRUST NO ONE!