Think

Does she still want me?
Emotions flood my mind
I try to think for the best 
but fail in every attempt
to wonder how she must feel of me
makes me feel like a monster
all that would make me happy
is her smiling at me
knowing that Im all she want
I know she's not happy right now
because im not either
there isn't an hour that passes
that I don't think about her
I hope she's better 
but I hope she'd be better with me
fear is an evil thing
it holds us back and keeps us captive
I fear very few things
but what I fear most
is that I might never again be close to her 
the girl that I want 
the girl that I need
I hope she misses me like I do her
to have her feel my pain
that would mean she truly cared for me
I fear her not hoping that we'll be close again
I hold nothing against her
because only she knows what's best for her
and I trust her, and wait

as painful as it maybe
this thought it humbles me