your feelings

I hate it when you have feelings for someone
and they dont have them back
even if you barely know them
it still a bad situation
but then you might not be sure to give up
you know in your head its pointless
but in your heart its worth it
how much are you willing to make yourself vunerable
for someone just to come along and hurt you
some may call it a crush
but i call it feelings you cant control
they make you mad, happy, and real happy
but alot of the times it makes you mad
I wonder how to make myself better
just to get the attention back
it makes you second guess yourself
Sometimes thats good
but most of the time it breaks down your confidence
I hope one day I'll have that
Most say that I do have it 
But I think otherwise
Its amazing on how I can want it  so badly
but so far its always let me down
I really hope its real
and not some illusion
I want it badly but it doesn't want me
all i can do is hope for the best
and make it better 
Because for now, there's always someone bette